i'm hurt lol. i dont know what to do. who i supposed to choose ?

i want A. Badly i want her. but.. hmm. y now ? y after i'm taken she come to me?

y not before i'm taken ? i already ask her bout that. but even she couldnt answer that. she speechless. y its happen to us ? y its happe to me ? i love you most. and i need you most. i just wanna get with you. can we start over ? ergh,! please. GOSH! help me to do it. and i hope this is the right choice to do. and i wont regret it.